Fat fingers grasping at straws.

I went out this weekend, and looking back at the photos I feel...

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 18:20:00 -0400

Before at 17st 3lbs

During 13st 3lbs

I went out this weekend, and looking back at the photos I feel its starting to show my 56lb weight loss. I feel so much more confident too. Another 28lbs to go.

Day 100!

Wed, 11 Apr 2012 18:06:06 -0400

one hundred days iv been at it, and people notice and I feel amazing for it, Iv had my hair done and now I feel a new person! I lost 5 pound this week too :)

Day Ninety-four.

Thu, 05 Apr 2012 19:40:41 -0400

On the positive side my knee isn’t in as much pain as yesterday, however now my abs KILL, from all the sit-ups, Russian twists, planks and everything else. I ache so much, but I guess that can only be a positive sign.

Iv still stuck to my diet plan. I’m pretty pleased with myself this week, I think I finally have it back on track. I just have one more day of sit-ups and diets to endure before weigh-in. I hope to god I can finally lose some weight this week. Losing 1 pound in 4 weeks is very disappointing but now I’m back on track hopefully the weight will fall off.

Day Ninety-two.

Tue, 03 Apr 2012 18:56:56 -0400

Another successful day! The diet I stuck to, I went shopping and bought all my essentials for the week. I took my shopping list and stuck to it. I was pleased with myself, I wasn’t tempted by the junk snacks on offer. Instead i decided to buy myself some new underwear to remind me that I am smaller and if I carry on I will get smaller!

At the gym, I managed 20 mins on the treadmill before my knee was in agony. I also did 10 minutes on the rower. After that me and my friend, focused on the stomach and pushed ourselves until we felt sick. I experienced my first Russian twist today and although it hurts like hell after a while, its a satisfying pain. I think I have a new love for exercise!

Mentally I feel happier, people who I know vaguely as well as family and friends are noticing and commenting on how much weight Iv lost which is an amazing motivation booster as well as the attention I know get from guys, (which is a first.)

I know I have at least another 2 stone to go before I’m classed as a healthy weight, but I will do it, I’m motivated now. I’m back :)

Day ninety-one.

Mon, 02 Apr 2012 19:04:27 -0400

Today I have eaten well :) I need to go shopping in the morning to get my food.

Iv also exercised, not as much as I wanted because of my knee but I have pushed myself.

Day Ninety.

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 18:35:32 -0400

This weekend Iv binged so much, I feel sick. I dont know why, I just couldn’t stop myself.

I’m so angry and disappointed in myself. I wish I could just quit the cravings :/ tomorrow Im straight back on it, Im not gunna fail. Aprils gonna be my month to shed some pounds!

kierstensweightloss2012: Lower belly pooch workouts Seriously...

Sun, 01 Apr 2012 10:21:01 -0400

kierstensweightloss2012:

Lower belly pooch workouts

Seriously need to do these :/

Day Eighty-Seven.

Thu, 29 Mar 2012 19:34:04 -0400

Today’s been a good day both diet and exercise wise. I now have a gym buddy, a friend from work has joined the same gym, which is great because it gives me more motivation.

hopefully I will lose some weight this week I have tried hard. Even if its just a pound I’d be grateful.

night all…

Day Eighty-Six.

Wed, 28 Mar 2012 19:22:48 -0400

I think being angry, frustrated and sad makes me work harder at the gym. I suppose theres a good thing within every emotion.

I seem to have lost an appetite, I dont know if I’m unwell or if its just my mental state that’s effecting me but I have never lost my appetite EVER, so I know somethings wrong.

On that note, Iv decided to make April my ultimate weight loss month i want to lose at least 8 pounds that’s 2 pounds a week. I need to make up for march. over the weekend I’m going to strictly plan my diet and exercise. I need to get my weight off.

Day Eighty-Three.

Sun, 25 Mar 2012 21:01:50 -0400

So like I thought I haven’t lost any weight this week. That’s a total of one pound weight loss in 3 weeks. Its pathetic because my holiday is getting closer and closer.

I honestly don’t know what to do, I went to the gym earlier I ran 2.5km and then had to emergency stop because I nearly passed out. I dont know whats happening to me, my mind wants to keep going but my body just wants me to stop. Its the wrong way round.

A few friends came over last night and once everyone had gone to bed, me and a guy friend stayed up and talked for a long time, I think it was 6am before we got to bed. It was nice to have someone to talk to but at the same time have someone whose relatable to my life, because his is just as fucked up as mine. He said some of the nicest thingst to me too, which were truley flattering, because I’v never been told them before and I never expected them to be said by him.

My heads all over the place, I’m so stressed, everything has been building and building and today Iv just mentally broken down, I’m trying to fix myself but its hard, and I don’t want to tell anyone how I feel because I know that they will see me as pathetic and weak, and that’s not want I want to be.

Day Eight-one.

Fri, 23 Mar 2012 19:33:19 -0400

So today again I feel the same. Iv worked harder at the gym. but I feel the same :( I hope my body fixes itself over the weekend so I can get back into losing weight.

Day Eighty

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 20:21:55 -0400

Today I have felt an overwhelming sense of anger, I am not an angry person at all but right now every little thing angers me! I’m trying so hard to lose weight but my body just seems drained. When Im running my legs are physically giving way. my shoulders ache so much when rowing and I become light-headed. I’m so frustrated because I feel stuck, stuck in the body I despise so much and my body wont let me change because it just shuts off.

I’m trying :( I just need help, someone to pick me back up again, just anyone, I’m tired of doing all of this alone. Being lonely SUCKS!

Day Seventy-seven.

Mon, 19 Mar 2012 20:15:57 -0400

This healthy eating is becoming harder. I’v been at it for seventy seven days and all I want to do is eat what I want and not have to go to the gym. Im tired of trying. But on the other hand Im also tired of being fat. I managed to go to the gym, I ran 5km in 33minutes ( personal best) and row for 10 minutes, Iv also done some strength training and toning also.

My food consumption today started off well I had porridge oats and then tuna wraps, but then I had a bag of crisps and a jacket with cheese and coleslaw( possibly the two most fattening fillings) so I’m disappointed with myself.

Tomorrow, I am working an 11hour shift which is great because not only will I not be able to snack in work, I also have no money to buy any food on my breaks either, so tomorrow should be a success. I just need to get my mind back on track and focus on the goal and not throw away all my hard work. I just need motivation!

Day Seventy-six.

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 19:00:53 -0400

I finally have the internet back :).

So much has happened over the last week, the first major thing is I OWN MY FIRST CAR :D!

second thing, Iv signed up to run race for life 5km in both june and july.

And finally my holiday is all paid off.

I have two things now to keep me on track with my diet and fitness change. One is to be physically fit enough to run 5km, twice in the space of a month. The other is to look fit and slim for my holiday.

I have just under 3 months. times slowly slipping away and I have lost a pathetic 1 pound over two weeks. It is disappointing when you have tried but the only thing to do this week is try a lot harder.

Day Sixty-Six.

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 20:08:39 -0500

Today I have consumed:

Breakfast- Apple, Banana and a clementine.

Lunch- Ryvita and Philadelphia dip, 2 warburton thins filled with tuna and salad cream, onion and lettuce.

Dinner- Jacket with a grilled chicken breast cut into cubes and mixed into light mayo. (Delicious).

Snacks- 1 bag of worcester sauce french fries.

Gym:

treadmill: 10 minutes, 8.5 mph, gradient 0.5. 20mins, 11mph,

Rower: 11 minutes, 2,000 meters, intensity 8.

Hip adduction: 4 sets of 12

Hip abduction: 4 sets of 12

Squats: 3 sets of 50.

Crunches: 3 sets 0f 40.

Side leg lifts: 2 sets of 15 ( each leg)

Leg raise: 3 sets of 10.

(Today I am so tired, and hungry, at the gym my legs physically seized up and I couldn’t run anymore. This is the first time its happened like this, so I had to stop, but hopefully Iv done enough. 1 more day left. )

kierstensweightloss2012: arthlete: It’s 3am here. Let’s see if...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 19:50:36 -0500

kierstensweightloss2012:

arthlete:

It’s 3am here. Let’s see if I can reblog this tonight! :)

Pop Pilates, baby.

Just got in from the gym :)

Day Sixty-Five.

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 19:23:51 -0500

Today I ate:

Breakfast: Banana, Apple and Yoghurt.

Lunch: 2 Warburton thins, filled with, 3 slices of chicken each, onion and lettuce, and reduced fat salad dressing. 1 bag of Ryvita minis and a Philadelphia cheese extra light pot.

Dinner: Grilled chicken breast, mash, Steam veg, stuffing, 2 yorkshire puddings and gravy.

Snacks: 1 breadroll and a clementine.

At the gym:

Treadmill: 15 minutes, 8.5 mph, gradient 0.5. Increased to 11.5 for 20 minute intervals, gradient 0.5, reduced to 6mph for 10 minutes, gradient 0.5.

Rower: 11 minutes, 2.000 meters, intensity level 8

Hip abduction: 12 reps, 4 sets

Hip adduction: 12 reps, 4 sets

Squats: 3 sets of 50 reps.

Crunches: 3 sets of 40

Side leg lifts: 2 sets of 12 (each leg)

Leg lifts: 3 sets of 10 reps.

Day Sixty-Four.

Tue, 06 Mar 2012 19:10:03 -0500

Today I have eaten:

Breakfast: 1 apple, 1 activia cherrry yogurt, 1 clementine.

Lunch: 2 chicken wraps, 1 banana.

Dinner: Jacket with tuna and salad cream.

Snacks: 2 breadrolls, 1 bag of cheese and chive ryvitas and phillidelphia cheese dip pot. 1 kiwi

The gym:

treadmill: 15 minutes at 8.5mph on 0.5 gradient. the increase to 11mph for 25 minute fat burner intervals, gradient 0.5.

3 sets of 40 squats

3 sets of 30 crunches

3 sets of 10 hip raises

2 sets of 15 leg raises (per leg.)

3 sets of 10 reverse crunches.

Day Sixty-Three.

Mon, 05 Mar 2012 19:03:31 -0500

Today I ate:

Breakfast: 1 apple, 1 activia 0% fat cherry yoghurt.

Lunch: 2 weight watchers wraps filled with lettuce and 5 slices of wafer thin chicken each topped with 1 table spoon of reduced fat salad cream.

Snacks: 1 banana and 1 bag of cheese and chive ryvita minis.

Dinner: Grilled turkey breast, cabbage, steamed veg, 1 ball of stuffing, 2 small Yorkshire puddings and a small portion of mash (mashed with 1 tablespoon of flora light) and gravy.

At the gym:

Treadmill: 8.5mph for 15 minutes gradient 0.5 and then increased to 11.5 mph gradient 0.5 and did 1 minute intense running 30 seconds rest for 25 minutes.

Rowing machine: level 8 intensity, 10 minutes 2,000 metres

Hip abduction: 4 sets of 12 reps, weight- 39kg

Hip adduction: 4 sets of 12 reps, weight- 32kg

Squats- 3 sets of 30 reps.

Sit-ups- 150.

Day Sixty-two.

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 17:44:48 -0500

Today I went shopping and stocked up on lotssss of healthy. Next week I’m going to try so hard. the gym every night after work and sticking to my calorie intake. iv done some meal plans so I’m all set.